Screw up >.<

Day 5-100 calories, easy. Maybe not. There was a work due on, and my mum forced and watched me eat 5 cholocate biscuits and 3 handfuls of chocolate raisins :( Id only had about 70-80 calories for the day as it was I was doing fine. I so want to re-start ABC but i don't think i'd be able to do it fully properly unless i moved out which isn't happening anytime soon. Fucking hell i hate myself. I so badly want to cry right now ever since saturday I've been feeling really awful lately, and i don't think i'll be okay again until i reach at least 8 st. So lets get this moving, im so trying to be optimistic, i'd go to sleep and wake up in a great mood but i cant sleep for at least 3 hours seeing as i ate it about an hour ago. I might go for a jog! Yeah i'll excersise. I feel so weak, then again it's probably best my mum doesn't suspect anything or i'd just end up eating more because of it. Yeah, that makes me feel better, kind of.
Much love, stay strong xox