Day 5-100 calories, easy. Maybe not. There was a work due on, and my mum forced and watched me eat 5 cholocate biscuits and 3 handfuls of chocolate raisins :( Id only had about 70-80 calories for the day as it was I was doing fine. I so want to re-start ABC but i don't think i'd be able to do it fully properly unless i moved out which isn't happening anytime soon. Fucking hell i hate myself. I so badly want to cry right now ever since saturday I've been feeling really awful lately, and i don't think i'll be okay again until i reach at least 8 st. So lets get this moving, im so trying to be optimistic, i'd go to sleep and wake up in a great mood but i cant sleep for at least 3 hours seeing as i ate it about an hour ago. I might go for a jog! Yeah i'll excersise. I feel so weak, then again it's probably best my mum doesn't suspect anything or i'd just end up eating more because of it. Yeah, that makes me feel better, kind of.
Much love, stay strong xox
Tuesday, 1 December 2009
Monday, 30 November 2009
Intro and ABC Day 4
Well this'll be put into two sections (i) Introduction (ii)Progress
Introduction
Okay, hi, i'm lillie, nice to meet you all, i've always been kinda anxious about writing a blog but I thought hey why not lets meet some new people and get my opinions out there. So i'm 17 and come from the U.K (euck). I used to get depressed ALOT, but now i look on the happier side of things. I worry far too much but know in the end everything will pan out. Anyway lets get off of the boring introductions.
Today
Im on ABC day 4! doing great I've only had 145 calories today so far, i've been doing this whole keeping eating to a minimum thing for quite a while now, too long to remember if im honest, I went through a bad patch which booted me up to 10 st 4. but now im sitting at 9 st 7, I just wanna be 8 T_T I did ABC a bit ago but failed when my boyfriend brought me an after eight mcflurry (he was getting worried as i almost fainted on him, but now he's got his problems and is too busy to notice mine) I was gonna carry on but then I thought no, i want to finish this completely and joined www.abcnow.proboards.com and started again. I feel great if i do say so myself, no urges to binge at all, i think its cause I know I can do this and I want to be beautiful.
Introduction
Okay, hi, i'm lillie, nice to meet you all, i've always been kinda anxious about writing a blog but I thought hey why not lets meet some new people and get my opinions out there. So i'm 17 and come from the U.K (euck). I used to get depressed ALOT, but now i look on the happier side of things. I worry far too much but know in the end everything will pan out. Anyway lets get off of the boring introductions.
Today
Im on ABC day 4! doing great I've only had 145 calories today so far, i've been doing this whole keeping eating to a minimum thing for quite a while now, too long to remember if im honest, I went through a bad patch which booted me up to 10 st 4. but now im sitting at 9 st 7, I just wanna be 8 T_T I did ABC a bit ago but failed when my boyfriend brought me an after eight mcflurry (he was getting worried as i almost fainted on him, but now he's got his problems and is too busy to notice mine) I was gonna carry on but then I thought no, i want to finish this completely and joined www.abcnow.proboards.com and started again. I feel great if i do say so myself, no urges to binge at all, i think its cause I know I can do this and I want to be beautiful.
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